This post is a life update for everyone who wishes to know where I’ve been and what I’ve been up to. I know I am not a social media butterfly as I used to be. I did that for my sanity and peace. I am taking less time from being active on social media and talking to people who wish to talk to me. I only interact with stuff I need and mostly browse FB reels.
It’s better this way, I don’t FOMO because I realized in the past few months, you are as good as inexistent to even the people you thought were your friends if you are not on Facebook or Instagram. I guess that’s the way the world is now. Everyone is just trying to survive. Fake being ok.
The End of the World
What's Inside
I sound like Carol from Carol and the End of the World, she’s a character from the Netflix cartoon series that depicts the depressing state of people and the world when the world is about to end. It is a good show that is introspective about our battles and how people cope or not cope when facing personal crises. You should watch it. It pinched my heart a lot of times while watching every episode. It is so deep and it is so true for me at the moment. It helped me cry.
I haven’t cried as much as I feel I should have since my mother passed away this March 16, 2024. Yeah, my beautiful, funny, thoughtful, and loving mother left this physical plane and joined the universe’s energy. I can’t see her or touch her but she will always be in my heart as long as I live. I love you, Mama, I wish your dementia had not taken your wonderful energy earlier and that you got the chance to experience the happiness you wish to see from me.
Happy and Sad
Funny that I have this internal struggle of happiness and sadness all at the same time. I should celebrate my happiness but I couldn’t celebrate fully because my grief over your loss is there as well. I feel like a crazy person but I don’t think I am. I am just going through some milestones in my life that I am experiencing all at the same time,
The tightest circle in my life knows why I am happy. I want to broadcast it to the entire world but not right now. Not everyone needs to know at the moment as everyone could judge me or cancel me having the audacity to celebrate when I just lost my mother. My mother knew before she passed on.
When you know the backstory you’ll understand. If you have known me for a long time and you are a friend you will be happy for me too. It’s just that things happen so fast and so slowly at the same time. Everything happened all at once like Everything Everywhere all at Once.
When you see me, you might see a cool, calm collected me. You might even think I am cold and aloof if we don’t know each other, or if you are one of the people I forgot because of the brain fog since Covid-19. The pandemic has changed me a lot. I used to like people and traveling. Now I don’t like crowds and I hate the time wasted in traffic when traveling.
Time Thieves
Maybe in the 3rd quarter of the year, I will make a comeback, like a Phoenix rising from the ashes. I may show up once in a while if I like the product/brand or the people I see at an event. Say Hello, or not, I don’t bite. I may show signs of annoyance because events are always late and I hate wasting my time, time I could have spent much better somewhere else than waiting for people who don’t respect everyone else’s time.
Probably some people have more time to waste because they think they’re maximizing their own time by wasting some other else people’s time. Damn you, all-time thieves, you know who you are. They are the people who want to be everywhere all at once because they feel they are important or needed everywhere. It’s a form of validity. I don’t blame them, like I said at the beginning of the post, if you are not a social butterfly you are as good as not existing.
Anyway, this is a rant and life update but I vaguely said anything you want to know. You just probably read a snotty person, if you actually read . There’s a bigger chance you skimmed through and smirked and raised an eyebrow.
How could you possibly relate to what I am feeling if you don’t even know me? It’s like the biggest problem of the world, comprehension, reading comprehension. Do people even read now or if they do, do they even understand what they’re reading?
I just lost my train of thought, I had a good analogy but I can’t remember what it was.
Money Drain
All the events in my life are just draining away/ drained away all my financial resources, I don’t have savings right now, it sucks to admit that but that’s the truth. Money is one of the reasons people get depressed. Money is the root of all evil and all good. I want money for the good of if only not evil. If you have a raket for me just holler at me and I will be there.
Yeah, money is a great motivator. Having all the money you need makes your life comfortable, and I want to be that, comfortable.
Still Blogging
Anyway, I haven’t left my blogger hat yet. Even if I don’t have social media I have my blog. A blog that is not Facebook, Instagram, or TikTok but an actual individual website you can visit anytime. Like I mentioned earlier if I like the brand, people, and services or the pay and I have time I can and I will come and I will post. So please feel free to invite me and fill up my email again with your event invites and press releases.
That’s all for now. I hope you are all well. If not I hope you have someone you can vent to, it helps.
Thanks blog. Thanks everyone for reading. Stay gorgeous everyone!
