I Am Afraid Of Ghost

Personally, I am afraid of ghost, I know they can’t harm me but just the same I don’t want anything beyond this life that I know to manifest itself to me by means of an apparition or any other form of infestations.

I didn’t have any unpleasant ghostly experiences, I had experiences I thought are ghost related but then I will leave it to my imagination. One thing I am sure of I don’t want any ghost to show itself to me.

My latest ghostly experience was during my father’s 90th day, just more than a week ago. I think his soul wandered and visited me particularly. I was awaken in the middle of the night by my need to pee. So I went. When I got back in my room there is this overpowering aroma that just filled the room, it was the smell of citronella. I was surprised by the pleasant smell because I did not light up any scented candles that night or even during the past couple of weeks . I sniffed my way trying to find where the scent was coming from, and it was clear it is only present in my room, no other part of the house had the aroma.

By then I knew it was my dad, so I lay motionless on my bed looking around, I can’t even move, although I know I shouldn’t be afraid, my daughter was sound asleep beside me. I was a bit afraid, I don’t want to see a ghost, even if he is my father, my sister and brother are begging for an apparition but me NOOOOOO way, I don’t want it.

I prayed for dad’s soul and told him I will visit his tomb the next day. Then the scent disappeared. I was able to sleep soundly.

Ghost is just akin to fear, fear of something we don’t know and understand, or fear of experiencing anything traumatic or the repeat of such experience. For example, a person who was betrayed becomes suspicious of other people’s motives and are therefore haunted by the unpleasant experience because of the betrayal.

Which leads me to another ghost I fear, having another child. See, since I had my daughter who has autism, I don’t want to have any other child anymore because I fear that the next could have autism too. The chance to have another child with autism is bigger since I already have one. I am not alone in this fear too, the parents I meet at my daughters school, hospital and therapy and even at the seminar I went to exhibit the same fear. Good for some of them who already had a normal child before the one with ASD, bad for me because I before my daughter I wished for 12 children! Seriously!

So literally or figuratively I am afraid of ghosts and I am not ashamed to admit it. How about you? Are your afraid of ghost?

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