If a ghost is a soul of a departed then why so many fear them?
Personally, I am afraid of ghost, I know they can’t harm me but just the same I don’t want anything beyond this life that I know to manifest itself to me by means of an apparition or any other form of infestations.
I didn’t have any unpleasant ghostly experiences, I had experiences I thought are ghost related but then I will leave it to my imagination. One thing I am sure of I don’t want any ghost to show itself to me.
My latest ghostly experience was during my father’s 90th day, just more than a week ago. I think his soul wandered and visited me particularly. I was awaken in the middle of the night by my need to pee. So I went. When I got back in my room there is this overpowering aroma that just filled the room, it was the smell of citronella. I was surprised by the pleasant smell because I did not light up any scented candles that night or even during the past couple of weeks . I sniffed my way trying to find where the scent was coming from, and it was clear it is only present in my room, no other part of the house had the aroma.
By then I knew it was my dad, so I lay motionless on my bed looking around, I can’t even move, although I know I shouldn’t be afraid, my daughter was sound asleep beside me. I was a bit afraid, I don’t want to see a ghost, even if he is my father, my sister and brother are begging for an apparition but me NOOOOOO way, I don’t want it.
I prayed for dad’s soul and told him I will visit his tomb the next day. Then the scent disappeared. I was able to sleep soundly.
Ghost is just akin to fear, fear of something we don’t know and understand, or fear of experiencing anything traumatic or the repeat of such experience. For example, a person who was betrayed becomes suspicious of other people’s motives and are therefore haunted by the unpleasant experience because of the betrayal.
Which leads me to another ghost I fear, having another child. See, since I had my daughter who has autism, I don’t want to have any other child anymore because I fear that the next could have autism too. The chance to have another child with autism is bigger since I already have one. I am not alone in this fear too, the parents I meet at my daughters school, hospital and therapy and even at the seminar I went to exhibit the same fear. Good for some of them who already had a normal child before the one with ASD, bad for me because I before my daughter I wished for 12 children! Seriously!
So literally or figuratively I am afraid of ghosts and I am not ashamed to admit it. How about you? Are your afraid of ghost?
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hmm.. i’ve seen ghosts, Earth. lots of them — all my life.
And i believe in that smell too. When my grandmother died, there was this really weird stench that suddenly appeared.
Anyway, your autism fear? I share that. It’s not autism but I’m afraid of having other children, fearing that one of them will inherit my hubby’s illness.
I think the fear of the unknown and unpreventable is much worse than the fear of apparitions and ghostly visitors.
I used to be afraid of ghosts and things like that but as I’ve gotten older, those fears have been replaced with more of a curiosity about what lies beyond this life. It’s rather nice to think that death isn’t the complete and total end and that perhaps there is a way that we could let our loved ones know that we still care about them when we’ve crossed over to the other side. I think perhaps that’s what your father was doing when he visited you.
I haven’t had any experiences with spirits of loved ones depearted. I always think I would feel peace from it, but that’s really just what I tell myself. I’m sure it would feel unnerving because it is so unknown.
I understand what you mean about your daughter. The fear for our children (and future children) can be the greatest ghost to confront. My son was born prematurely and had to have heart surgery after only a few days. A couple years later, my second pregnancy was definitely an anxious time for us. Thankfully, everything was normal the second time around.
On the autism note, my friend has 4 children…boy, girl, boy, girl. The two boys have autism and the 2 girls don’t.
I wish you the best in your decision!
The fear of the unknown is the worst kind of fear, and it is normal for you to worry if you have another child. I am sure anyone who has a special child already would worry..Just do what your heart tells you.
As far as ghost..try not to be afraid. I think your dad visiting was just his way of letting you know that he is still around and loves you. My mom has told me she has seen my dads ghost several times since he passed. I have never “seen” a ghost, but as you can tell from my blog on the paranormal have had a lot of strange things happen.
I hope you will visit me again and I will stop back by here.
Enjoy your week
I was fortunate that we didn’t learn of my son’s diagnosis until I was already pregnant with my 2nd child, or we may have experienced a similar fear. But I’m so glad that I have both of them, and I consider him to be just as much of a treasure as his sister is.