Picking Me Up

“We do not choose to be born. We do not choose our parents. We don not choose our historical epoch, the country of our birth, or the immediate circumstances of our upbringing. We do not, most of us choose to die; nor do we choose a time and conditions of our death.

But within this realm of choicelessness, we do choose how we shall live; courageously or in cowardice, honorably or dishonorably, with purpose or in drift.
We decide what is trivial in life. We decide that what makes us significant either what we do or what we refuse to do. But no matter how indifferent the universe may be to our choices and decisions, these choices and decisions are ours to make.

We decide. We choose. And as we decide and choose, so are our lives our formed. In the end, forming our own destiny is what ambition is about.”

My high school friends would regard me as one of the most ambitious person they ever met. They said I always go for what I want and whatever happens either I fail or succeed I never ever regret it.

They are true in a sense but not entirely, I regret some of the foolish things I did, of course I do, but I don’t wallow in my failures and think I can’t rise from my fall. It was my choice and either or I take take full responsibility of every decision I made and the consequences it brings to me.

I met girl who was crying non-stop she was crying because she realized she did not have any ambition for herself and she never realized until she met me. She said I have reached too many things in my life too soon at my age while she, all she wanted was to marry her first love and be a good wife and mother to all their kids.

She was silly to cry over it because I told her nothing’s wrong with what she want. Big or small we have our ambitions and that was hers. Why would she look up at me when my life is more complicated than she think it is? I may be smiling but inside I am struggling.

I told her choosing to be a house wife and mom is highly commendable. There aren’t successful scientists, politicians, engineers or doctors without a caring and loving parent. Don’t ever think you are less than others because you mold and you love. Her face lit, I saw a smile on her face, and I saw her eyes glow a little.