Here’s my 2020 year-end essay entry:
“At times our own light goes out and is rekindled by a spark from another person. Each of us has cause to think with deep gratitude of those who have lighted the flame within us.”
― Albert Schweitzer
If you are reading this, Congratulations ! We both made it through the painful gifts of 2020. Now it’s time to look forward 2021 with an optimistic outlook of all the growing pains of the year that passed . Time to look through the rooms of our lives and see the potentials not the flaws it brought our lives.
When I decided to write this essay, I thought I would be writing a lot of regret and a sorrowful look back of 2020. How it took my freedom to do the things I was used to doing . I was programmed to join the rat race unwittingly not looking at what I have but looking for what more I can have. The present was not important more than what I can get in the future. You know, always looking for the NEXT even when the NOW is just here and ready to be experienced.
2020 was actually a blessing in disguise . Sure it slowed me down, it gave me anxiety and depression that I think is still lingering until now. But still it gave me a tunnel vision of what’s important, who’s important and who are the people who really care about you and let go of those who are just a decoration in your life.
Not being able to be physically with the people you love and care for is what hurt the most . But it was such a refreshing opportunity to turn down social interactions with other people. You have the best excuse not to be with people you don’t like. You don’t have to be forced in interactions with anyone. We all have that power to say no and choose who to keep on our side and who to let go.
2020 was the year of letting go of old habits that we thought will die hard.
2020 was also the year of discovery, self-discovery and finding our potentials.
2020 did not actually halted us. 2020 empowered us.
We cannot pour from an empty cup. Before 2020 we were pouring out everything even if we don’t have anything more left for ourselves. We crave too much of approval and was so afraid to make mistakes and be human. 2020 gave us the chance to be by ourselves, fill our own cup, learn and grow and gave us the power to say no.
Sure we have limited movement, the old cafe we used to sit on and pretend to look busy is no longer existing. Now we can sit at home in our pajamas and be truly busy finding way to improve our lives and current situation,
I am really surprised about how this essay is turning out. I can’t believe how optimistic I am right now. My current state of mind is really on a rut when I first opened this laptop to write. I wanted to pour out my sadness . But surprisingly I was looking at the past year with a brighter outlook. It was that awful year at all.
For 2021, all I wish is that we have everything better. I hope and pray we get the things we lack in 2020. That we’ve learned our lessons and gained new powers. We got rId of the old bad habits and embrace an improved version of ourselves. Make better decisions and better relations.
I wish we all can be with the people we want to be with in 2021 . Humans are by nature a social being. We can’t be in our own little bubble for long.
Anyway, while the traitor of 2020 is still out there (you know Covid-19 and the new strain), keep still, stay home, stay safe , stay healthy, and stay gorgeous everyone. We shall see each other again at the finals .
Btw, did you write your own 2020 year-end essay? Share your links on the comment section below. I’ll check it out, I still have a lot of time I’m not in a rush for anything, all I want is to get through and get by this now.
Here was the replay of my HELLO 2021 GOODBY 2020 FIREWOEKS DISPLAY in Metro Manila, Philippines (fast forward to 3 mins and then just move the curser forward to see the best bits!)